bleh bleh bleh! I'm not depressed anymore!
I just got over the most annoying fever! I hated it!
Of course I'm cold *inside* all the time. Why?
I dunno=-
So its hard to know if you have a fever.
But I did.


So I spent my day either in bed, or doodling with my tablet! *hugs her tablet*
It sure likes to make my comp freeze alot. Cuz I had a entry for yesterday... but my mousy froze ;-;
But I will give up the luxaries of unfreezable computers for this mousey:D
*Glomps her tablet*



For instance... Look at what I can do with it!





Waii!
I'm watching Kodomo no omocha
Soooo funnY!
I've been looking at lil blogs. Blogs like this



Their called 'series blogs'. I love them! I wanna do one of Kodocha!
It'd be so fun to be Sana-chan! ^.~
If ya wanna join.. mailme!



Did you know that I met Hello kitty?
Neh SUGOI!




K so I'm gonna go play with my tablet now.

Gahoouuuuunnn~!
*hehe*

i haven't been on here cuz I'm afraid if I do I'll blurt out everything that I can't stop thinking about.
I mean I'm high then I'm low. Yesterday I was so happy!
I mean I got to go to CN anime which was great. I now have a Ken-oh-ki. Very cute^-^
And a Gackt cd.
I also followed around this voice actor from all sorts of cartoons and anime, named Scott McNeil. One of my friends really likes him but didnt' come so the entire day was trying to get his autograph and doing everything for her benefit. I got abandoned a couple of times (but doesn't that always happen) and found the people we came to hang out with for awhile. Then somehow I became a fan girl and was whisked away to follow Scott McNeil around.
I'm not a big fan, but he was a really nice guy.
And when I got home my dad had gotten me a Tablet! I've always wanted one of those.



But now I'm sick.
My throat feels like its on fire but I still went babysitting (well my friend was at the con for the second day) and my back hurts, and i have a COLD!
Bleh
I'm sad too. I feel like none of my friends care about me. I know I'm helping by getting in depressions, missing school cuz I'm sick, and probably cancelling every thing either cuz I have a doctor's appointment, or im SICK=P


But no one cares. I try so hard to stay myself and no one appreciates it, just get mad on the odd time I cancel cuz I can't go on.
And thats how its come to thoughts of suicide, and maybe actually finding out i have a serious illness. Maybe someone would care enough to something nice for me like my friend did for her other friend.
It was such a nice thing though!
She got Scott McNeil to call my friend who's his fan as Piccolo (her fav voice he does), but because I'm shallow (or something) I wondered if anyone would do that for me.
I wonder if I was thought about at all when I couldnt' go somewhere cuz of my illness.
And this is about to bring me to tears.
I've never had a visitor to my house when I'm sick.
Mom just wants me to take these horrible tasting meds that aren't working, but she thinks they are. And every time I said that she said she noticed I was getting better.
I'm *afraid* to get better.
I don;'t know what its like in the real world.


last thing is everytime I have a head ache I'm forced to go outside and walk! Can't I just lie down.
Can't I just die?