Blue Skies

2002-01-22T23:03:00.000-05:00

I have a pen name! @.@

I'm not alowwed to give away my real name (cough cough *Meghan* cough cough) So I am Allanah.

Ladida .
It has been forever since I came here too!

I have a big chemistry exam on Thursday. I hope I do OK on that. Otherwise I wont pass and I'll end up back in Bishop Redding for Summer school >_<

Well, that's not exactly bad... but yeah.

Also on Valentines day I'm going to actually visit the place I did the blog a thon in support for.

A day in Toronto at sick kids >_< Hehe

Also, if anyone cares to see I have a webcomic now (since I last updated anyway) I moved it and made it better. So if you want to take a look click here

The new picture is from it too! I also included it in a HUGE art project I just finished today.

Well, better get off. I stayed up til 1:30 am and woke up at 7 this morning so I'm really tired *.*
Ja!

2001-12-11T08:34:00.000-05:00

click this

lol

2001-12-06T22:00:00.000-05:00

eek there's a squierrl in our house! 0_o

2001-11-22T23:04:00.000-05:00

waii!
I'm beyond exited!
I went to the Lurlene McDaniel message board after abandoning it for like a month and she had actually posted there! XD XD
She must had just done it too because she had only one reply ^^;
I had sooo many things I wanted to say to her, but I felt bad about doing it on the message board with other people trying to post too.
She had asked if people liked her new book and I basicly commented on that.
I managed to fit in that I liked to write too, and how about I just post the entire thing up on this website, and when she replies I add that too. ._.

Lurlene's Message :D

I enjoyed all your posts, even the one from the reader who doesn't like my books. (It happens....) You all are the most wonderful readers in the world and I count myself very fortunate to have you reading my books. Yes, I know they can sometimes be very sad, but such is real life. Both my dear parents have died and I miss them everyday. I think writing about death makes it seem less scary, less intimidating. Death is part of the cycle of life. Sickness, a burden that many must bear. Yet, the kids I've met who struggle with illnesses and do something positive for all who suffer are MY heroes.
Thank you again for all your comments.

PS. Anybody read HOW DO I LOVE THEE yet? I wanted these stories to be about the strength of love.

My reply^^

From: Blueskies (MEGGIECHAN) 7:36 pm
To: LURLENEMCDAN unread (5 of 5)
67.5 in reply to 67.1

I've recently been absent from this board, and I can't believe that when I come back Lurlene McDaniel has posted here.
I've always wanted to write to you but have never found the time ^^;
I love your books. I'm pretty sure I have them all now (besides the ones that are out of print.)
I have so much to say but I don't want to take up anyones time on here, and I've been meaning to write you anyway, so I'll just say I really like 'How do I love thee' so far.
I found Nightvision very diffrent but so very beautiful.
I haven't read 'Laura's Heart' yet, but I will be and I'm sure its wonderfull^-^
I'm sixteen, and I want to be a writer one day too.
Thanks for the long hours of reading enjoyment,
God bless you.

-Meghan

Well I swear this has been like the highlight of my life (and in light of some intense suffering this week too ;_;)
I only wish she knew just how great this has been for me ^^

So, yeah I had something to say about my 'hospital hopping' on Monday but I don't wanna cuz I'm on cloud nine. XD
So I'll show my sexy shoes :D

2001-11-13T22:50:00.000-05:00

I have new fish!
I have 2 goldfish (the other flew away :-) and Tiny Tim's all grown up! He was my silver, shiny fishie that we brought in last summer after the goldfish were *ahem* busy=p
Now he's gold, and skinny, but still tiny!
The Koi, who's silver, white, and black spotted with orange on the head, is HUGE! He's as big as those pond koi you see at Chinese restraunts XD
And! We have two new lil fishies!
We have a fishie just like Tiny Tim from last summer. I named it Thumbalena, cuz we need a girl fishie.
The other one is super tiny. I never saw Tiny Tim that tiny.
So we named him 'mole'.
Its a Chemistry term XD

There I've told three stories in three posts tonight. Isn't that amazing? ^.^

2001-11-13T22:40:00.000-05:00

One of my guy friends asked me out on a date today.
He'd been hinting at it all week, although I'm lil too dumb to catch on T_T
I found myself alone in the sauna room (a warm room in between two doors at the back of our school) with him, and he had asked me to come to a hockey game and chinatown with him.
The usual question slips from my mouth; "are you asking me out on a date?"
Thoughts ran through my mind too.
Should I say yes?
But I remembered how uncomfortable I was with boys; alone.
I remembered how in every book or movie I saw I willed the characters never to date their friends. I just thought it wouldnt work.
My short lived 3 relationships in 16 years were never my friends first. Not even Jean Marc.
I barely new him.
Thinking about it now.. I wish he never asked.
Its better to stay friends, then go out together, have a falling out, and never talk again.
Like Jean Marc.

So my two cents for today is never date your friends.

2001-11-13T22:24:00.000-05:00

I haven't been here since Halloween?
Whoa.
Also, was it just me or was my site completly centered?
Oh well.
I've been wanting to write in here alot lately, so I'll do it today.
I am so so proud of my new comic cover! Yes I'm vain today, but its my first real copic drawing and its so pretty!
I have to put it in here. XD
clicky

I saw a little girl (not so little anymore) from my old elementary school when I used to lunch supervise the 3rd grade class, who I learned when I was in my first year of highschool,had been diagnosed with cancer.
My prayers went out to her back then, but I had no idea how to get in touch with her.
All I remember was the time she wanted to go to our school's infamous 'Pokemon club' and because I was in grade 8 I couldn't come with her.
More like I didn't want to=p
Anyway... I saw her in Harvey's on Saturday.
She's much bigger now, and was sitting with an older lady. She still didn't have any hair so I guess she's had a long run of treatments, but what I wanted to say was I admired how confident she was.
Here she was in a restraunt full of people, wearing a silly hat that she confidently takes off.
She doesn't care what anyone thinks. She is happy to be well.
She looked well, I think.
I wished I'd talked to her, but I was afraid she wouldn't remember me, and I wasn't exactly feeling so great either.
I'd like to say God bless you Skye, and keep well.

2001-10-30T23:07:00.000-05:00

Meghan's Halloween Anime list pt. 1

Wanna scare yourself silly on halloween tomorrow, but you've seen all the 'Halloweens and Friday the 13ths'?
More specifically if you're an anime fan -.-
I've dedicated my last half hour tonight to stick up a few titles, with a breif review (I'm bored alright=p)
Here goes^-^
Laughing Target

This one I really liked.
A high school boy who had an arranged marriage when he was six is about to be confronted by his now older fiancee, who isn't just jealous that he already has a girlfriend and has forgotten about the marriage arrangement, but she has supernatural powers that is putting him and his girlfriend in grave danger. 0_o

K, that really sucked as a review but yeah... I forgot what it was about=p
Check it out tho. Its a good Halloween scary ^.~

2001-10-30T22:54:00.000-05:00

My favourite doctor out of the many many doctors I've visited over the past 5 years is my Gastrologest (sp? -.-) Dr. Lau.
I like her because she's trying to help me, and it seems like she is. Most of my other doctors just found me a complete puzzle that they couldn't solve so I was a broken toy tossed in the play box. I am an insolvable case I know, but at least I have some great people to help me.
I feel like this Doctor is sympathsizing with me. My visits with her are always just me to her face to face, and altho she has gotten what my problem is wrong a few times (not that it matters because she's close enough), I know she's listening to me. I don't withhold anything because I'm afraid of what she'd think either.
The funny thing is I think I've seen her the least of all my doctors, and yet I know her the most.
She once even took time out of her short visit to see my art, and find out that I was a writer, and she praised that idea.
My first visit to her she thought she had a solution to my problem too, which has been rare for me. It didn't work, but I felt good I had tried so early on.
Anyway, I like her for all those reasons, and because shes a younger doctor so I feel more secure around her. I love her accent (its so cute! ^.^) and I feel like I'm going for a chat with a friend. Except this friend has the potential to end my chronic something or other -.-
The nurse in the small office is really nice too:)
Another neat and interesting point I never thought I'd come across from a doctor was she used to live in Hong Kong and actually knows what anime is when I show her my art. She said she's seen some.

The only problem with all this is she can't cure me, and she's sent me to a few other doctors too. Today she said the same thing again, (although I had thought I wouldn't see her again after the last time she said that=p)
"I have no idea whats wrong with you."
But today I actually asked her about the other youth patients. She said that many kids my age come in with the same problem but the pantaloc (my first meds) got rid of it. I even asked her if ever she had treated anyone with the same untouchable symptoms of nothing like me. She hasn't.
So I figure I am all alone on this one, and it did depress me quite a bit when I heard it, but I feel better about it now.

I'm now up for another visit to a paediatric Gastrologist (still can't spell that >_<)
And maybe she'll light my candle.
But I'll always know, no matter what, Dr. Lau was the one who was the oxygen.

2001-10-28T00:21:00.000-04:00

'Angel Eyes' is a really good movie^-^
Mom and Dad and me watched it.
Pretty un eventful day too.
Oh well, wheee

2001-10-23T23:01:00.000-04:00

i think ill just update this old old layout that *Still* thinks i was doing the blog a thon=p[
and yet in a week or so ill be back to staying up all night, maybe ill blog for the hell of it again neh? My egg test will keep me up all night ^.^
hehe thats its new name, egg meaning EEG.

mmmmm strawberry cheescake icecream.

K.....

I have nothing to say now... bai!

2001-10-15T22:29:00.000-04:00

woo hoo homework that consists of eating chips and cupcakes, making cute lil party hats for the lil kids coming into our parenting daycare, reminising about how Caroline never showed, and then playing on Christina's trampoline and dancing on Disney DDR :D
And we say we hate homework :)

2001-10-11T22:08:00.000-04:00

oops haven't been here for awhile.
My hospital test was fine by the way^^
Kinda freaky cuz I woke up in the bed in the hospital and they told me I could go home, but I couldnt' walk!
It was like I was drunk 0_o
Well, I have a whole bunch of things happening now but I'm too lazy to write it all.
I'll come back=-p

2001-09-18T21:43:00.000-04:00

Tomorrows my big day!
Ekku!
But I also conquered my fear of talking to grownups today, and my wonderful neighbours sponsered me yet again this time for Terry Fox run which i can't wait to do this year cuz since grade 9 I did it but didn't get sponsers! I did donate but thats not good enough ;-;
So now I do!
And I got references to work at the hospital this summer.
My dreams finally coming true:)

Well, wish me lucky everyone!

Bai bai!

2001-09-16T22:48:00.000-04:00

onnnnee twoooo
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ^.^

2001-09-11T21:33:00.000-04:00

Hey I've been meaning to come on here but I haven't gotten around. I'd say this would be the best time to come.
Everyone knows whats happened today, it was really scary to hear about here in Canada knowing we can't really do anything about it, but might be targeted.
I was scared for my friend who's from New York and her family lives back there, but apparently eveythings OK.
Our school was always talking about it, but the teachers had been asked not to mention it to any of us. What do they think we are? Kindergartners?
Kids in 7th grade at elementary schools were informed.

My dad works at the tallest building in Toronto except for the CN tower, and it was evacuated and he was home about 10 minutes after me. Ottawa was a target too, and Canada has something to worry about because we're a 'dumping ground' for international terrorists, but for now my prayers and condolenses go out to Amercia, our cousin's to the South.

I'm watching '100 huntley street' thats doing a prayer on the events of today. I'll save my prayers tonight for this too.

What I've been wanting to say all week is something totally off topic, that I had to interupt my mom well she was watching the news about the terrorists. I have to go to the hospital next week.
But not just to see another specialist like I did on the first day of school, but I'm actually staying there.
I'm scared cuz its a stomach test and their going to put me to sleep, and stick a tube down into my stomach. After that I have to stay in the hospital til I wake up which wouldn't have been so scary if I got an appointment in the morning.
But its next Wednesday, at 3:00 pm so my guess is I'm staying over night.
I have to leave my graphic art class too! ;-;
I love that class.

I've never been in the hospital for as long as one of my appointments or to get stitches when i was 3 and in 8th grade.
And for some reason I haven't told any of my friends=p

Oh and in November I get to have another hospital stay in Missisauga at a really nice hospital called trillium where I saw my neurologist. He's going to do an EEG on me.
For pre cautions I guess, cuz he couldn't find anything neurologicly wrong with me. Which is good cuz that'd be scary!
An EEG is where they stick lil sticky things to your head well your sleeping (which means I get to stay up all night the night before, which im used to thanks to the blog a thon ^.~) and measure your brainwaves to find abnormalities.

So this year is my scary year, I'm sure everythings more scary for America, and I hope theres no war.
I've beat illnesses as have my mom.
We can't be taken by a war!

My prayers go out to the family and friends of all the victims of todays events and I hope it doesn't escalate anymore then it has.
Goodnight

2001-08-29T12:43:00.000-04:00

bleh bleh bleh! I'm not depressed anymore!
I just got over the most annoying fever! I hated it!
Of course I'm cold *inside* all the time. Why?
I dunno=-
So its hard to know if you have a fever.
But I did.

So I spent my day either in bed, or doodling with my tablet! *hugs her tablet*
It sure likes to make my comp freeze alot. Cuz I had a entry for yesterday... but my mousy froze ;-;
But I will give up the luxaries of unfreezable computers for this mousey:D
*Glomps her tablet*

For instance... Look at what I can do with it!

Waii!
I'm watching Kodomo no omocha
Soooo funnY!
I've been looking at lil blogs. Blogs like this

Their called 'series blogs'. I love them! I wanna do one of Kodocha!
It'd be so fun to be Sana-chan! ^.~
If ya wanna join.. mailme!

Did you know that I met Hello kitty?
Neh SUGOI!

K so I'm gonna go play with my tablet now.

Gahoouuuuunnn~!
*hehe*

2001-08-26T23:31:00.000-04:00

i haven't been on here cuz I'm afraid if I do I'll blurt out everything that I can't stop thinking about.
I mean I'm high then I'm low. Yesterday I was so happy!
I mean I got to go to CN anime which was great. I now have a Ken-oh-ki. Very cute^-^
And a Gackt cd.
I also followed around this voice actor from all sorts of cartoons and anime, named Scott McNeil. One of my friends really likes him but didnt' come so the entire day was trying to get his autograph and doing everything for her benefit. I got abandoned a couple of times (but doesn't that always happen) and found the people we came to hang out with for awhile. Then somehow I became a fan girl and was whisked away to follow Scott McNeil around.
I'm not a big fan, but he was a really nice guy.
And when I got home my dad had gotten me a Tablet! I've always wanted one of those.

But now I'm sick.
My throat feels like its on fire but I still went babysitting (well my friend was at the con for the second day) and my back hurts, and i have a COLD!
Bleh
I'm sad too. I feel like none of my friends care about me. I know I'm helping by getting in depressions, missing school cuz I'm sick, and probably cancelling every thing either cuz I have a doctor's appointment, or im SICK=P

But no one cares. I try so hard to stay myself and no one appreciates it, just get mad on the odd time I cancel cuz I can't go on.
And thats how its come to thoughts of suicide, and maybe actually finding out i have a serious illness. Maybe someone would care enough to something nice for me like my friend did for her other friend.
It was such a nice thing though!
She got Scott McNeil to call my friend who's his fan as Piccolo (her fav voice he does), but because I'm shallow (or something) I wondered if anyone would do that for me.
I wonder if I was thought about at all when I couldnt' go somewhere cuz of my illness.
And this is about to bring me to tears.
I've never had a visitor to my house when I'm sick.
Mom just wants me to take these horrible tasting meds that aren't working, but she thinks they are. And every time I said that she said she noticed I was getting better.
I'm *afraid* to get better.
I don;'t know what its like in the real world.

last thing is everytime I have a head ache I'm forced to go outside and walk! Can't I just lie down.
Can't I just die?

2001-08-06T20:41:00.000-04:00

fear factor is really really gross tonight.
I saw Princess diaries, but because the newspaper had the times wrong I missed 25 minutes of the damn movie =p
It was good, but kinda childish 0_o Not to mention there was a chunk of the story missing=p
Tylor loves me more then his sister=p
"How much do you love Meghan, Tylor?" Danielle says.
"A lot!" Tylor says.
"How much do you love me, Tylor?" Danielle says.
"A litte.." Tylor breathes :p
Hehe I'm sure that feels good.

We also pretended that Danielle's big blonde dog, Jacob was Keroberos the mighty BEAST!
And Tylor was Eriol (haunted freaky character from Cardcaptor Sakura) and I was Sakura with my BEAST Keroberos, and he had a black BEAST which was supposed to be Danielle's black lab, Emma but she was no where to be found;-;
We also teamed up and tried to kill Danielle :)
And that was my day^-^

2001-08-04T21:04:00.000-04:00

Guess what! I've watched 4 episodes of cardcaptor Sakura after sleeping in till like 12, playing on fmc (and learning to rpg).
I also fixed up my manga (cuz Sabastian just looked so bad at the begining=p) and listened to anime HARDCORE radio ^_~
Those are some cool online radio stations.

So that was my day.
Fun huh?
;-;

2001-08-03T22:21:00.000-04:00

Oh my goodness!
I haven't updated for quite awhile. I must say I miss this place too <:)
What do I need to say?
Yesterday was a blast!
Me and Celesse took a bus to Burlington and blahed down around New street, (where they also is a anime store XD)
We had a very expensive lunch at Burlington's own 'Safe Haven' restraunt. 'Safe Haven' meaning "if you feel ill, distressed, or need someone to talk to they'll help".
Weird.. I guess its cuz it isnt' exactly the best part of town.
We had a lot of fun anyways^^

At night we went back and saw crazy/beautiful

It was a really good movie, and Jay Hernedez is HOT!
Hee hee

What can I saw about today?
BORING! I stayed inside all day, and watched TV.

2001-07-30T23:54:00.000-04:00

awww I just got an FMC email from this really nice girl on FMC who read my story I wrote over a year ago in 6 notebooks, and 200 pages on fmc XD
This is what she said^-^

Hi there... ^^ I have **no** idea if you'll get this... But I fell in love with your story "Security Blanket" ...I read the second part to it awhile ago *last year* without reading the first but still fell in love... It's soooo well done :) Then I decided last night while having an exciting brainstorm session, that I really wanted to read it all through. So I came on, looked you up and read... ^^ I just finished Part Two... And it made me cry.. like four times... I love it!!! :) But... I was sad to find there was no Part Three in any of your bios... That I could see... Is there one?? Or..? Did I make a mistake..? :(
I just wanted to say that it inspired me to write a story last year when I read Part Two... then now... looking back at what I've written and what I've read... It's almost the exact same thing... But... quicker... Stuff happens in a different order but I have all the same stuff... It makes me want to start again... *nods* I might... I have ideas... :) ...

Thanks for your time... ^^

'Bella
Mel
xoxo

Isnt that wonderfull?
I went through all my profiles and found it for her.
Baka me labeled it as part 4.
I was looking through it, and I'm thinking.. I sure changed it=p

Maybe one day ill put it up for you guys.
For now...
Ja!

2001-07-30T23:12:00.000-04:00

Hey! I'm back now.
I've been kinda tired for obvious reasons^-^
I had a great time doing this event. And I hope all who came by enjoyed seeing it all come together.
We raised $20,000 dollars which is double the goal, and I'm proud to be a part of it^-^
Cat's got it written down that I raised $60, which is right.. but me, and my mom and neighbours are gonna send in some money too.
Mom's proud that even though I am sick I was able to do it. I'm just glad I'm able to help others in my position ^.~

My wonderful friends over at my oekaki encouraged me, but none so much as my wonderful friend, Katonoid.
Thanks so much, Kato *hugs*
Here's the picture he drew me after the event^o^

What a sweetie!
Now for today's news...XD

I got to do my mom's food shopping today. Isn't that fun?^o^
I was tired, and couldn't get back into routine today, so I just stayed around my house.
At around 8tish my old friend, John who moved to Burlington last year came to the door! I was so happy to see him, I hugged him, which is funny cuz he was *sorta* my ex-boyfriend too.
So we just talked and talked, and my mom told him about what a hard year we'd had and he was so nice about it. Him and mom were always close^^
He ended up having Hailey's number! I'm so happy!
She was one of my friends who i met at CNanime when i worked there, but she keeps moving and I can't keep up with her telephone numbers =p
He said not to call til 12 am tonight as she goes out until then 0_o
He also told me some info I didn't know bout her, but I won't get into that....
I'm just happy i get to talk to her again.

2001-07-29T15:15:00.000-04:00

Thats it!
My computers being a slow piece of crap so I had to come late.. but this is the end!
I hope everyone did well, and was able to stay awake XD

I know I had a bit of trouble, but never missed a post.
For everyone coming here this is the last grand finale picture ( i never said it'd be good=p)
I had a lot of fun posting them, and I hope everyone enjoyed seeing them.
I find it a shame that some of the other blogs were doing stuff but hiding it.. or something. Cuz I certainly couldn't find anything.
Ohwell.
We did it! We stayed up for 24 hours!

Ja ne! I am off to bed!

2001-07-29T14:36:00.000-04:00

Last post until the end.
What to say.. what to say.
the radio's boring=p
Muffin's here, and its cold outside, and I'm inside for the 24th hour blogging. Do I feel bad?
No!
I'm happy to have done this. Although trying at times it was great fun, and for a very worthy cause^-^

My last pic before the end is my very first Cg art (so its not Mcalangelo style)

I leave you with this. And wish you the best on the end of your blog too^o^